Happy Heavenly Birthday!

I've been lucky so far; having my fiancé as my guardian angel.  Of course, he's not with me anymore but I know he's watching over me and blessing me with the progress I have gone through so far in my healing journey.  He, too, had an auto-immune condition.  I wish I had known what I know now about the illness; I thought the Guam doctors did the best they could to treat him, I believe.  At that time, it was during the pandemic-- so travel was limited and traveling off-island would have been highly difficult giving Will's demeanor and understanding at the time.  His illness eventually affected his memory; so it would have been difficult to travel -- just the two of us.  And nobody had the money nor acumen to take such a difficult person.  Will had his lifetime troubles of his own -- some extremely sad -- but family needs prevailed.  Especially his side of the family.  So I still have flashbacks of taking care of him; and I know it was by divine intervention that God took me out of that situation.  I think God took me out of a lot of troubling situations through divine intervention.  I just pray I have a chance to heal and live a full life == healthy and free-- to be me.

Will

We met through a friend

And we had so many things to share

Like we were best friends

Before we met.  He was alone

And so was I -- meant to be.  

December 8 Red Wine

In Micro Payless

Passing time until the crowds

Ended with procession,

We bought some red wine and drank.

The rest is love --  history.  

Your Birthday in Heaven

What is it like, Will?

To watch me from above and

See me like this -- here -- 

Without you?  Without you -- I

Fear, cry that you won't know me.