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Wagamama Life

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I want to sew blankets and butterfly dolls by the time my leave is over.  It's been taking awhile to get settled and actually do the work because my regimen for health is rather rigid.  If I drift off to do a particular activity, the rest of my day falls behind.  It's rather punishing -- the symptoms I have and then making time to relax with hobbies such as sewing and gardening is time and cost expensive -- so I have to juggle around my priorities.  It's not like I'm on a salary and can take off in my car to head to the craft store to get supplies or head out to go grocery shopping so I can get ingredients to bake or cook a new recipe.  Just a little vent to let you know my stresses of the day. I know your stresses are possibly worse than mine, but when you have anal tendencies, this absorbs my mind and discomfort for my days on this healiing journey.   Sewing The thrills of sewing Come with the peace of knowing That what you make is One of a kind to y...
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B-shift Magnetism

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I listened to a 1990s to 2000s dance mix on Youtube today, and for once, I did not need to change the selection.  It was quite enjoyable to listen to because it brought back fond memories of my clubbing days. From the 1990s, it was TJ's and Club Carme for me in Tumon.  In Boston, it was any club that would let me in at age 18 on Landsdowne Street.  Then there was the obscure bar I hung out at in Harvard Square that let me in with my Swedish blond haired roommate's fake ID.  Mind you, I'm Asian-looking, so by the mercy of the bouncer, I was let in when I was carded I believe because I dressed well that night.  Winning.  Then moving to Japan, it was mostly about bars and drinking, as opposed to dancing.  Big bars in Shizuoka resemble what the local Guam bar The Venue has to offer in terms of ambiance.  More a social hangout than a full-blown dance floor.  Then returning to Guam, I loved Club Chameleon in the former Day-Ichi Hotel.  My frie...
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Happy Heavenly Birthday!

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I've been lucky so far; having my fiancé as my guardian angel.  Of course, he's not with me anymore but I know he's watching over me and blessing me with the progress I have gone through so far in my healing journey.  He, too, had an auto-immune condition.  I wish I had known what I know now about the illness; I thought the Guam doctors did the best they could to treat him, I believe.  At that time, it was during the pandemic-- so travel was limited and traveling off-island would have been highly difficult giving Will's demeanor and understanding at the time.  His illness eventually affected his memory; so it would have been difficult to travel -- just the two of us.  And nobody had the money nor acumen to take such a difficult person.  Will had his lifetime troubles of his own -- some extremely sad -- but family needs prevailed.  Especially his side of the family.  So I still have flashbacks of taking care of him; and I know it was by divine...
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Inafa'maolek Energy Shifts

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Just some little poems to drop this Saturday evening/Sunday morning.  Today has been nice.  Cousin Janice went shopping for me and brought a bunch of vegetables and fruit for me.  I feel so blessed that she is blessed with mobility and health to do this for me, even though she has challenges of her own.  Thank you, Jesus, for making today possible.  So today, I made lunch... a small pizza  slice because i had a big breakfast..  My brother brought over some leftovers from a party he went to and shared some beef bulgogi  and chicken estufao dishes with me.  Now I have meals for the weekend I can warm up and eat.  Yay! So today I share as we all share on Guam -- the inafa'maolek way. Inafa'maolek On Guam we take care - Of close Family and  Friends -- Our circle of life On this beautiful island. Molecular energy.  Energy Being around me When I am in a good mood Can be hard to read: Because of anemia, I can shut down suddenly. ...
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Expression

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Knowing that I get to express myself on this blog has opened up a world of possibilities and brainstorming of things I can do despite being homebound recovering.   It is a wonderful feeling that I have freedom like this.  I hope you get to feel the degree of elation I feel right now.  This freedom has opened up creativity, positivity, and a sense of self-worth.  After I started this blog last night, the overthinking stopped.  I have goals and ideas now that can be expressed and executed productively. Forgive me for being industrious, but that's how I was raised.  It feels good to create, to produce, to do projects and come out with an outcome.  People say that its the journey that is important and should be cherished.  I was raised in a household where the destination meant more.  Standards were high.  Competition among the siblings was high.  Old school teachers as parents molded us that way.  Take it or leave it.   Re-Le...
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Lemongrass Dance

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I started growing Lemongrass in my porch a couple of weeks ago.  So now I have a love for taking care of the plant.  The bunches of lemongrass have grown so much in that time that now I believe i can plant them in the ground, or atleast move them from the porch ledge to the ground for safekeeping.  They are such a joy to watch them grow.  IT makes me realize the importance of slowing down and watching things and those you take care of prosper and develop into something beautiful and useful for our lives. The lemongrass has given me a new appreciation for time and space and beauty.  As an herbal remedy for many things, with its fragrance, and with its earthly significance to nature -- I can honestly say I am so in love with lemongrass.   Dancing with Lemongrass I passed by the stalks; Grazing eyes, I felt on me. Silently -- I stopped Engaging with each of them; So they can grow without me. Lemongrass Tea Cool minty-ness hints  And sweetness kisses I tas...
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Greetings!

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  Ohaiyo!  Good morning, everyone!  Here is a blog of thoughts and emotions running through my mind as I recover from an immune-compromised condition.  These thoughts help me express myself as I deal with the roller coaster of anxiety throughout this recovery process.  Forgive my humanity.  I hope you enjoy some of what I write, but more, importantly, I hope you learn something new as I write these posts and pages of my journey.  Toodles!  
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